I was extremely bored today and suddenly went to read their blog again, from head to tail. And it proves that I shouldn't have done so. It's not the first time going into that site, in fact it's been a few times already, and everytime it just gets me pretty upset. It is no different today. There's a saying that we shouldn't look at someone's past, the present and the future is the most important. Yes I know, but I just cannot cross that imaginary border of mine, even after so long. Because whatever that's said to me, applies to somebody else too. I wasn't the only one to share those memories. I'm just so 小心眼. But anyway, I guess I'm in no position to be upset anymore. Just want to rant....

1st June 2012 - The day my beloved hamster Icy left me


As I'm sitting on a bench at Paya Lebar, I recalled the beautiful memories Icy brought to me and my family. Still remember the first day when I brought her and Ashley home on 11th June 2011, they were very small and fragile. I forgot why I named her Icy, probably of her whitish fur. I didn't dare to carry them for at least 2 weeks. I had to use their house cap to carry them , only dared to stroke them. But I soon overcome the fear, and still remember that "invisible" feeling of them crawling on my hands when they weren't in the beginning.



Icy was the first to be friendly to me. She wasn't as "fierce" as Ashley to keep biting me when I carried her. Icy was a very active, strong-willed and smart little girl. Every morning and evening, she would climb around the cage for minutes, for hours, waiting for my dad to feed her. Even when Ashley is tired of seeking attention, she still kept on biting the cage. She hardly rested when running in the exercise ball, and even after running for 30 mins, she would still continue to run on the wheel. That's how active she was. And you know what? She could go over the little hump between the living room and kitchen many times when she's inside the exercise ball! Even when she realised she couldn't, she would reverse, and try again, until she could go over it. Such a determined little girl. At times, when both Ashley and Icy were biting the cage, she would wait for a chance, wait for Ashley to help her open the cafe, and then quickly sneaked out of the gate while Ashley is still struggling simply because he's too fat! Lol. She's a really really smart girl. My mum likes her alot.



Oh ya I remember she liked to do this lol

I like how she would follow me around the house while exercising in the morning. I like how she would welcome me home when I return. I like how she eats very slowly, just like me. I like her blur looking face when she woke up, disturbed by me. I like how she reversed and climbed over the little hump. I like how she sayang me back with her head when I sayang her. I like how she bites the cage for hours. I just like everything about her.

The last moment of Icy before her death

Icy, 11/06/11 (the day she became mine) - 01/06/12

It has been a stressful and upsetting week at work.
Nothing seems to go right, everything I do seems to get reprimanded.
Sometimes I wonder, if I have the ability to work.
I know what weng wrong, it's not my ability, it's my personality.

"做人不要太好" is something I'm learning to change
I'm not trying to say I'm very nice, it's just that I'm not pushy enough.
TBH, I'm scared to ask people to do things for me or ask them questions, scared I'm disturbing them.
And that is why my projects are stalling.
I know this is not the way but I need time to change.
And perhaps I'm a too "chin4 cai4" person - my expectation is not high enough.
I hafta raise my bar.
haix.. freaking stress-up.
Everytime when my boss asks me to meet him, I'm damn scared.
I know i'm gonna get scolded.
Even if I think my work is fine, I still think I'm gonna get scolded.
Somebody teach me how...

Teddy Bear Museum

Sunrise Peak. The climb up there was so torturous

Supposed to see sunrise, but halfway up, the sun has already risen.... -_-!!

Jusangjeolli Cliff

After 12hrs of flight on budget airline, finally found our way to December Goodstay Hotel in Jeju.

Our fave room. Looks old from the outside but inside is so worth the money.

Yongduam Rock. i think

Koreans selling some food at the rock

Love Land! Everywhere is sculptures of different sex position

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Our all time fave eggroll!

All korean restaurants serve side dishes. But most of them we don't dare to eat haha

Back from my 12 days of holiday in Korea which means back to reality.
It had been a fun trip and I enjoyed myself.
Everything was fine until just mins before boarding the plane,
I tripped and fell on the travelator in the airport while running to catch the plane.
And got quite a bad cut on my knee.
And probably ran too much and disgusted by my wound, I puked and blackout on the plane.
What an ending to my holiday...
Maybe I'll upload some photos when I got them. =)

On Tuesday, my grandma passed away when I was still in Korea.
I went to the wake straight after I alighted last evening.
Am pretty upset but I guess this is life.
I just wanna thank my ahma for being such a wonderful ahma to me,
and apologize for not doing much for you when you were around.
R.I.P ahma.

wow its been a long time since i last posted an entryok so holiday now. no more exams (hopefully)
applying for jobs, but because of my korea trip,
i'm missing 2 interview chances.
very disappointed but well, there's nothing i could do about it too.
hopefully, i can be offered a not bad salary package tomorrow and i would accept the job offer.
no matter what, the most important thing is to work hard, to do my best.
ok this post is really random and meaningless.