One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.
If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time,
we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters -
whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past
the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end?
Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad?
Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won't take another step
until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life
have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved:
your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister,
everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves,
getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time,
not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us.
What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children,
late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents,
lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away
and has not the least intention of coming back.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs,
move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world,
of what is going on in our hearts -
and getting rid of certain memories also means
making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards,
so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose.
Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated,
your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again,
the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss:
that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off,
work that is promised but there is no starting date,
decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment."
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished:
tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person -
nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance,
but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Closing Cycles - Paul Coelho

yeahhh i finally did my FIRST tutorial of the sem!!!!
seriously im very very proud of myself
i finally get down serious with my work for the first time of the sem
can you imagine? its already thursday of 3rd week and i only just started studying
i really mean it when i say i never study at all
until mon when i suddenly 真的怕了
mon after our usual Sports Day session
we skipped a non graded mod lecture again which is like from 5.30-8.30
and went jp for dinner
my bao bei just randomly say go her house stayover(she wasnt serious)
and i really just stayed over at her house. invited of cause
cool right so impromptu haha
i love this kinda random stuff. like say supper jiu supper. mj jiu mj
ok then at her house i suddenly realised sucks wth am i doing here?
shouldnt i be studying? i planned to study
i had so many random stuff to attend to this week
tues watched badminton match. wed watched cheer leading competition
(oh btw my hall is the champion this year again=))
then thurs was supposed to watch liang wen ying's concert in NTU
but i gave my ticket away in the end cause 我真的怕了
its already end of week 3 and i still dont know whats going on in week 1's lecture
and do think im taking 7 mod this sem=x
needa be serious!!=x

like i said its a downward sloping curve
year 1 sem 1 i think i did almost all tutorials beforehand even if i dont know how to
year 1 sem 2 well still acceptable
year 2 sem 1 at least did the first 2 tutorials for some but some totally never touch at all
year 2 sem 2 kns never even do the first tutorial
真的活该。连我自己都看不下去

am i really not serious?
not referring to my studies. but the way i talk
since the start of school at least 5 uni friends said im not serious when i talk
or say im crap
because i try to joke or be funny when i talk
then they dont know when am i serious and when am i joking
so they assume im joking and always add a "Serious?" after what i say
and it gets irritating at a point because sometimes
i REALLY mean what i say sia
they even teased me that if one day i die and say my wish before i die
they will ask "Serious??" -_-'''
but they dont mean the bad way la
i said i will be serious from now on but they asked me not to
next time when i say im gonna faint or im being kidnapped
please believe me

i also should try to reduce the number of embarassing things i do
this week i did a few more embarassing stuffs
apart from the 认错人 incident which im not gonna elaborate
today after dinner with my friends in the canteen
i super gei2 kiang3. wanted to balance 2 trays with bowls and cups on top for fun
then my bao bei said "DONT drop"
and when i wanted to stop "playing" and put down the tray
i accidentally spilled a full-cup of root beer on her jeans............
the chair and floor and her file ya tio3 root beer.........
like in the middle of the canteen during dinner hour..............
this is like the 3rd time in 2 years that i spilled drinks
first was last year also with my uni friends in the canteen
i accidentally spilled a whole full large cup of ice lemon tea on the table
when i wanted to shift my friend's laptop away in case the drink topples
and i spilled the drink myself instead
then another time was at white sands which i mentioned before
i dropped again a whole full cup of kfc drink in the middle of the shopping complex
and rmb i was alone..............
then now again. what the....... feel like slapping myself

and this afternoon was talking with my friends about soccer
my guy friend was surprised that i do watch soccer sometimes
so he asked me to name 5 manu players
then i happily happily named Rio Ferdinand as "Fernando"
i said "neh the English defender Fernando dunno what "...
and named the goal keeper "David Seaman"
and said AC Millan is in Spanish League
and they all laughed at me
walau eh... cant believe i actually said all those stuffs
when i really do know them. just that i suddenly forgot
haix.. i have no more face to throw liao=(

freak i failed my ftt......
i almost heck cared about this test
which results to this kinda result
SIANX!!!!
i havent do the test i knew i would fail
then halfway thru the test knew confirm fail
so i purposely wait till almost everybody left the room then i clicked done
so that nobody will know i fail
lol its ok. retake again in may and i will study hard this time

went shopping for my cny clothes with jel on fri
a BIG THANK YOU to you my lifelong online partner
for accompanying me from 1pm to 9pm
we had lunch and then shopped at ION for like really long
we can walk into the same shop for like 2 3 times
until we can even memorise which shop is located where la haha
then went 313 and then dinner
really really thanks so much for not complaining
and just accompany me for so long just for my clothes
though you bought one too haha

ok before my happy day with jel i had a very very SUAY morning
i hung my clothes out the night before and next morning it rained!!
you might think why i so stupid to even hang my clothes outside in the night
我是有苦衷的 =x
i wanted to snooze my alarm for another 10mins
the suddenly realised OMG raining!!
so i hurried to wash my clothes again and spin dry in the washing machine
i wasnt late for tutorial at first but due to the rain i took a detour
and then was late for 10mins
i peeped into the room and saw that it was fully packed no seats
and i was too paiseh to drag chair from another room so i didnt go tutorial in the end -_-'''
then i was in a hurry to meet jel
there are 2 SBS bus service in ntu. 179 and 179A
then there are 3 shutter bus service in ntu also. Bus A B C
so at the busstop i saw a SBS bus with no 179 or 179A
it just put A
so i thought its 179A and i board it
i even flashed out my ez-link card but the bus driver said no need to tap
i thought eh how come so good no need to pay
those waiting at the busstop "stupid" sia dont want to board
and the next moment before i knew it
ITS SHUTTER BUS A!!!!
the bus turned left back into ntu instead of going straight out of ntu
what the freak!!!!
that instance i felt like the stupid-est person in the world
and seriously felt like killing myself
so i just alight straight away and cab down
and i even typed wrongly in a sms to ys to tell her
im very SWAY instead of SUAY
then she replied "what you mean sway 3times? u drank alcohol last night?"
i still LOL and forgot that its SUAY and not SWAY and still 理直气壮 to her sia
say what u thought its literally that SWAY??
omg how dumb can i be sia =S

went for my second 21st party of the year this afternoon
seems like there are really MANY MANY more to come....
so broke..

we have 7hrs break in between lessons on monday
yes i know. 7hrs super sianx.. especially for friends who dont stay hall
so im gonna enforce this "Every monday is Sports Day!"
yesterday during our looooooooong break
we played badminton basketball and i went gym to run 3km on the treadmill
exercised for like near 3 hrs
feel damn shiok+healthy+fun
and of cause dead tired after that
during the 3hrs lecture at 5.30pm walau buay tahan
then slept from 1am to 11.30am this morning
but still feel tired today haha
first time exercise with my coursemates super super fun
maybe street soccer next mon
no monday blues =D

2 consecutive nights of supper with Oceanx at Xin Wang Cafe
reminds me of our genting trip
more of that please=D

first week of school so fast coming to an end soon

went to my first 21st chalet party this year just now
my current roomie's one..
mm considering if i should have one too
but to think about the awkwardness because you cant entertain every group
and some friends might get bored
i think just forget it =x

something i wanna say is im very happy that we have full attendance
for clique gathering yesterday!
for like the first time in many months or even 1 2 years we have all 8people
this is something we should celebrate hahaha

badminton's out for IHG. left squash which alright im not very into it
was very disappointed and upset when we lost our crucial match
and its probably the last time i got to play competitive badminton
too bad it was a bad finish again
its like not that you are lousier than your opponents
just that somehow it isnt your day you are off-formed
this feeling is so familiar. you know like a thorn in your heart
aiya very hard to explain unless you go through it before
the disappointment will go off very soon la
but somehow even after a few years you will still feel
"aiya why didnt i play better? if only etc.."
ok nvm. hopefully there will still be more chance to play=)

alamak January only need to prepare 4 21st presents and my brother's one
and need to buy textbooks
pocket empty!!

can i play mahjong at least once every week?
im really addicted to it seriously
i want a mj set and table!!
but my house is off for mj need a mj set for what

2 more days to school reopen. most sianx thing is i have tuition tml morning
if not because i cancelled tuition last week
i would have cancel tml's one and stay over at the chalet to play mj lo haix..

actually im not really very sad or sianx that school is starting
because the holiday is getting kinda "boring"
i dont really enjoy a holiday with just purely playing and slacking
i prefer work play and slack
ya you never read wrongly-- work!
but of cause not office job please. not 9 to 5 and 5days work week
i prefer retail or sails kinda working schedule
like what i did last holiday the sell educational dvd one
maybe work for 3 4 days a week and play/rest the rest
work and stand for 12hours a day nvm la. as long as fun will do
ok im gonna cherish my last sem in hall
and cherish not having to travel=)

ying xieng

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Im Happy
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