many things to say..

1st. yeah! promos over!
2nd. i'm dead meat..

aft dis 5 days of exams i haf a feeling i wld do badly. rly bad..
i was super stress dis few wks. esp dis wk..
everyday i was having e mentality tt i wld not promote..
all dis negative thinking started coz of geo..
i super HATE geo! okiez. specifically physical geo..
coz i simply dun understand. i tried reading e notes slowly over n over agn to try to understand but i couldn't..
dunno wat's e reason but i think e notes r so chim la..
den when u dun understand n u tried to memories it's damn hard..
i rly was going to breakdown throughout tt period..
i even hate/scared physical geo to e extent tt i'll hide e notes under my things. i dun1 2 see it. coz e moment i see it i'll think alot..
i tried to tell myself to e mirror tt i love geo. but still i dun manage to do it..
last time when i tot of not able to promote i wld be scared..
but nw when i tot of if choy touch wood i cnt make it i no need to study geo agn makes me alittle happy. haiz. tt's hw much i dislike geo..

haiz. dis wk was rly terrible 4 me. i couldn't get to slp every night..
esp sun night b4 GP paper. i only slept for 1hr plus..
though i'm v tired but e moment i closed my eyes i tot of all e negative things. it's like flood. keeps on streaming into my mind..
den i cried lo tt night..
nxt few nights i couldn't slp well either. but it was beta den sun night..
at least i only tosed for 2-3 hrs plus b4 slp..
i also dunno y i was so stressed lo. 1st time like tt..

i think dis period of time is rly tormenting. i noe not only for me la. maybe out there many ppl r also feeling like dis..
but actually i already tried my best le. i think so..
my mom said if cnt go poly but she'll support me..
my dad also asked me dun be so stress..
i noe i shdn't be thinking abt all dis but i'm juz trying to be mentally prepared la..
haiyo stop it le! choy touch wood..

okiez. anw mon rite yy n wendy came my house to gif me surprise. lolx..
wendy purposely find e excuse 1 2 come my house get her shirt from me..
i kept on telling her i cn return it to her when i see her agn but she kept on saying it's okiez..
i found it alittle strange but dun care la..
den suddenly i heard e door bell n when i opened e door i saw yy. so shocked lo..
but they said my expression wasn't gd enough. haha..
so happy they were here coz like when u r in a rly down mood some1 came to support u..
they gave me encouragement card n cookies which they baked themselves..
yy also gave me my Super BELATED bday pressie lo. haha..
mm it's board thing agn dis yr. 3 yrs le. but every year diff things la. lolx..
her bday is dis sat. but i haven tot of wat to make for her. i'm not creative la. think of 1 pressie muz think for v long de. haha..

nxt mon n tues supposed to be hol for us coz some ppl r still having their exams..
but noe wat? mon we haf chem lecture!!!! wao! hol still haf chem lec..
i dun rly feel like going coz supposed to go out de. nw i dun think cn le..
nxt fri night is Eureka's gathering. haf to help mau buy all those bbq stuffs..
dunno many ppl going anot..

oh ya. i juz found a new combi. golden mushroom+ hotdog+ veg+ egg+ meggie mee!!!!
dis is my new found fav food. lolx..
golden mushroom is so nice cn? den ah juz nw i cooked my combi agn lo 4 dinner..
i specially asked my dad to buy golden mushroom. hehe..
e haze is getting worse. nw e smell is like so terrible. even if i close e window e smell is still so strong..
haiyo den nobody wld 1 2 celebrate lantern festival le lo..

okiez la. gtg le. c ya. NiTeX!