walau i shdn't be blogging nw..
juz nw i blogged a super long long post for e whole 40mins..
n i accidentally deleted e whole thing..
so pissed la..
no feel to blog nw but nvm. retype n summarise lo..

finally im back from my 4D3N Badminton Training Camp..
n i mean really finally..
after e camp i haf only 2 words to describe it..
Very Tiring n of coz Fun!

Day 1

checked in to our so call hotel in sch=hall stage..
n e first thing i got there i realised sth..
ppl brought 10 clothes i only brought 5..
coz i saw e schedule 1 day bath 1 time so i juz brought enough..
not v smart ah me..
in e end i brought tibbits instead of clothes..
haha n got laughed by ms lee..

okiez training started at 9.30..
expected yet unexpected..
its singles mutiple shuttle training ya tt's expected..
ususally we would do 20 shuttle per set..
den ard 10-15 sets..
dis time it increased..
from 20 to 25 30 35 40 45 den 45 40 35 30 25 20!
its properly e worst training me n joanna got..
anw aft dis still haven end training la..
but not gonna say in detail..
n its only 1st quarter of e 1st day..

trained for 3 hrs den we all went whitesand for lunch..
lunch n dinner had to settle outside ourself..
no fastfood n haf to eat fruits. lolx..
we really did followed tt instructions..
it was fun toking rubbish all e way..

den went back to sch for game play..
game play not those waterbomb or wat. i tot was tt at 1st..
its badminton match game..
Den PT..
sprint 400m 4 times..
den interval as in sprint 100m den jog 100m den sprint 100m agn for 1.2km..
really can die man..
but here comes our motivation..
Bathing Time!
yeah! only motivation for e day..
got heater somemore..
n den 1st time bathe in guys toilet coz they finished faster. haha..
they got sofa somemore lo in e toilet..
its teachers toilet anw..

aft tt went Century Square for dinner..
back for mental training-boost confidence..
finally day 1 ended at 9 plus n it was free n easy time..
cam go slp..
but dunno y i always cnt slp on e first night..
no matter wat camp is it..

oh ya nxt terrible session..
we had morn run b4 breakfast for tue n wed..
at 1st i tot morn run was juz 2 to 4 rds..
in e end tue we ran 3.2km..
okiez nvm..
wed morn 4.8km!
ahh! i cnt imagine we actually finished tt..
haha but felt rly satisfied aft running..
coz i think i nv ran tt much b4..
n its b4 breakfast somemore..

e nxt 2 days followed e same routine la..
cont saying i guess its nv ending...
but last night was v fun..
we had team bonding game..
played game using candles n waterbombs..
n oh ya sidetrack abit..
b4 tt we played soccer w kids outside..
okiez back..
me n elizabeth went to fill up e waterbombs in e toilet..
but we forgot e lights will auto off..
den suddenly its all dark lo..
v dark. cnt even see her..
we were v scared faster ran out n asked a guy to go in..
haha coz we heard some sounds inside e toilet..
maybe paranoid..

e war start!
we hit each other w waterbombs..
including ms lee n seniors..
ms lee whecked ppl like dun care. juz whecked..
haha..
n its at night 10 plus somemore..
suddenly felt e whole team v bonded..
nv felt tt b4. as in e whole guys n gals team..

i broke my own record too!
drank 10 cups of milo in 3 n a quarter day..
poor elizabeth drank w me too!
we ended up always wanting to shit. opps!
bet im e regular customer to e PE office to make milo..

i felt cheated too!
e last night dinner we went jalan kayu to eat roti prata..
there's lots of special roti prata..
n i got fasinated by e choc prata n ice cream prata..
so i ordered both..
walau ended up 10 bucks eh!
i dunno so ex lo..
super ex can! heartbroke..
n i nv finish coz i feel like puking..
maybe coz too ex so cnt finish. haha jk la..

though there's fun but many unhappy things happened too..
which makes ms lee coach n many ppl unhappy..
shall not elaborate..

its a Super Long Post!
i noe its quite boring but i dun care..
cont to write. lolx..
coz i really haf many things to share..
if u read until here u really endure man. haha..

i asked myself wat haf i learnt from dis camp..
ms lee n coach asked us too..
but no one has an ans to it..
maybe coz of e probs tt happened or wat i dunno..
but come to think abt it..
i guess i did learn sth..
i learnt to endure..
i learnt to endure e physically demanding tasks like morn run n training which i tot i could not do so..
but yet i feel tt i did not push myself to my max..
i could haf tried to endure alittle bit more..
n not give up so easily..

i also learnt more abt friendship..
sometimes we need to take e first step to noe e other person..
for example get to tok to e guys..
for e past 1 yr honestly speaking i nv speak to some of e guys at all..
e most not more den 10 sentences i guess..
but aft playing e bonding game n spending 4D3N with e team..
i really did noe some of them beta..
don't judge a book by its cover..
its a cliche but we dun always follow..
at least e guys n gals teams r closer to each other nw..
maybe still not tt close but at least beta den nth..

i really hope to improve skills..
aft training for 5 yrs i realise actually im not there yet..
i noe where's my weaknesses..
my main weakness in e most basic weakness..
without overcoming tt i dun even noe if im average anot..
im already trying my best to change it..
but its not easy for me to change sth which i haf already done it for 5 yrs..
i told myself to do it but i juz can't..
i dunno y..
its not tt im unwilling to do so..
e psychological barrier juz seem so hard to overcome..
e pressure from everywhere..
coach or myself..
makes me want to run away from it sometimes..
give me time..
im trying..

actually there's more to say but really cnt finish it..
guess i will juz keep them in my memory..

watched badminton match live juz nw..
it really exciting..
nw my new idol. Xing Aiying from Singapore..
she's same age as me lo..
though she lost la but its really a v close fight..
her opponent is dunno wat champion in watever competition..
her fighting spirit makes me admire her alot..

Trying hard to reach you, but i can't..