so sadden-ing..
went to see doc for my backpain juz nw..
as expected he excused me from training for 1 week..
supposed to be 2 weeks actually..
but i asked for 1 week..
he gave me medicine to eat n apply..
n said if 1 week later e pain still persists..
have to go for x-ray..
but dun care..
im going training tml..
but not on wed n fri..
coz my parents seriously dun allow..
actually its v painful..
i cnt even wear my socks properly..
whenever i bend down..
its like a sharp pain piercing thru me..
aft seeing e doc more worse..
i can feel e suan(1) n alittle painful..
even when i juz stand there n do nth..

imagine i cnt train for 2 wks..
n cnt talk to my badminton friends for 2 whole wks..
haix..
wat if e pain still persisits by nxt week?
den might have to go hospital do watever thingy..
not that i love training now..
but telling me i cnt play badminton coz of back prob..
im rly Bu Gan Yuan..
if dis happened to me 2 mths ago..
maybe i would be more den grateful..
coz i dislike training to e core then..
but y when i am getting used to e intensive n stressful routine..
when im nearly succeeding in trying to like it..
its taken away from me agn?
only 4 more mths to go..
n properly i'll not touch e racket for a v long time..
ahh dis is frustrating n terrible!
wth..

anw is back prob v serious?
y is everyone telling me that its serious?
3 yrs ago i went for backbone check up..
e doc said my back bone curves to e left at e bottom..
but she said it wun affect any of my activities..
coz i Wun grow taller anymore..
of all things she guessed dis right..
ahh..

so glad those friends whom i told showed concern..
but yet haix..
maybe i expect too much..

hw seems to be nv ending n piling up..
lectures seems to be more difficult n faster..
expectations seems to be more demanding..
goals seems to be further away n cnt be reached..

actually everything is all in e mind..
tell urself u can do it n u will do it..
but den when u are trapped in a real crucial situation..
sometimes dis inspiration wun do any help..
n e cycle continues..
agn its all in e mind..

I Can Do It And I Will Do It