sometimes ppl whom u nv tot would care for u..
are simply juz there..
but yet when expectation is too high..
u'll get disappointed..
im so glad when some of my friends sms or ask abt my back..
really touched..
oh ya n crystal. i'll come back n join u soon!
seriously missing e times when we train tgt..

went to see doc agn today..
tml going for xray..
will noe e result 1 week ltr..
if they call me means there's sth wrong..
if no call properly means i pulled my muscle..
haix. im worried shit can..
though i've been trying to hide my fear..
n tell myself ahh it'll be over soon..
inside me im thinking of it every moment..
actually i dunno wat am i worrying abt..
but there's so much pressure coming from everywhere..
wan go training but parents dun allow..
never go training for too long later teacher dun believe me..
got 1 month mc but expect me dun go training for 1 mth?
even if i seriously haven recover by 1 or 2 weeks..
teacher will think i pretend..
competition coming in March n im here not going training..
ahh wth..
i noe im crazy injured still wan go training..
but no choice. someone is giving me pressure..

cannot sit still..
today really felt like crying in sch..
especially when i heard tt phrase..
Tell yourself you can do it n you will do it..
walau eh..
thats wat i've trying to tell myself during training rite..
den it reminded me tt i want to do it but no chance..
nvm cap cap be optimistic!
i'll cont to eat my medicine=panadol..
it is making me sick..

juz realise badminton journey in jc is not at all smooth..
last yr jan sprained ankle..
mc 2 weeks..
den got transfered to team B..
but finally return to main tean agn..
now jan injured back agn..
mc so many weeks..
wat if im transfered to recrea?
be optimistic..

anw thx wendy! haha..
let me vent out all my sorrows..
almost everything..
though thru msn..
but its e same..
coz i cnt say out all dis in person..
feel beta now..

Down in e bottom of e pit. Who do I reach out for?