badminton is fun
though never played for a very long time
the love for it is still there
especially when i just play for leisure now
no pressure. no stress
just pure love
hahaha
i felt "less heavy" for a moment
not physically but mentally
it's back to the old feelings after tonight

kinda regretted telling my parents something
i think it only makes them more worry


so many nice movies to watch now adays
but no time to watch them. so sad
i think i need 3days 3nights marathon to finish watching them


life can't be any worse than now
so i guess you can only pull yourself up and carry on
oh yeah. if only i can be so optimistic


i like to walk on the pathway home everyday after school
just beside my primary school
no choice i have to go home alone
it sets me thinking about many stuffs
things that i don't usually have the time to wonder about
actually not really. i think about them most of the time
and they only make me sadder
then i see those primary school kids playing and running around
so carefree. so innonent
how i wish i could be like them
and how i wish to tell them enjoy your primary school life now
cause you won't have a second childhood
but actually childhood here isn't what we should have
we start going to school from as young as 2 years old. walau

i suddenly realise Time is a very 可恶的"东西"
you can have many second chance for many things in life
but you won't have a second chance to get back the lost time
yeah i know this is commonsense and everyone knows that
but we still don't cherish it even when we know that "philosophy" or whatever it is called
just like how i said Time is very 可恶 and precious
i still don't hold on to it tightly and use it to the max what
that's why human is so ironic
we say one thing and do the other

maybe we are going through this tough period now
because it is part and parcel of life
i mean there are ups and downs in life what
of cause who wishes to go through downs and failures?
who doesn't want to be happy every moment?
but come to think about it
life wouldn't be complete without them
we only live once
it wouldn't be "interesting" if we only experience successes
and get whatever we want
because falls can spur one on and yet bring one down
CRAPS. actually im one of the many who wishes to live life the way i want it to be
im just bullshitting la
but i really feel this way what
just that i don't mean it
ok. you know what i mean

walau. getting into one of my "life philosophy" thoughts again. hahaha
it's fun you know if you are bored
then you think about all this nonsense to spend your time
rather than being emo
but it gets super annoying when i can't find the answers to my unanswerable questions
and then i'll feel guilty because i can't do what i say

Hey stop thinking too much and get some sleep!!