oh man. im gonna say about my freaking day

first. it started with a terrible nightmare last night
don't know why i can't sleep last night
maybe "long time" never go to school kinda excited or what(my head)
when i finally fell asleep at 4 plus
i dreamt about this super weird dream and even slept talked
ok it goes like this:
im a CID. a Guy
den i dreamt of this mediacorp actor for goodness sake(dont ask me why)
and he's a CID in my dream. and he likes me!
means he's a gay. thats the freaking part
BUT he's out to harm us. like a spy
then many things happened. not gonna elaborate
in the end. he ran and chased me
because he wanna tell me he likes me or what and wanted to kill me
he said he planted a bomb somewhere
aiya very 乱 la
then i ran and ran and ran away from him
suddenly a lorry stopped infront of me
a few people came out and carried a pot of green bean soup
then i saw the bomb inside
an aunty opened the cover
and then i shouted out 不要动有炸弹！in my dream
and i woke up
i slept talked this sentence out and my bro heard it
.......stupid

anyway another pissed off matter
just now i wanted to cook a simple dinner for myself
cause for the past few days i've been eating instant noodle cup noodle
and i was alone at home also
so i went to buy some vege and golden mushroom
and went down twice cause realised forgot to buy ma2 you2
den i cut the vege everything ok. the porridge boiling
suddenly a small cockroach crawled over my mushroom!!
damn it. you know im very afraid of insects
whats more a cockroach
but bobian right i cut everything ready already
and my porridge boiling
so i plucked up my courage to spray insecticide on it
it ran to my parents' room and i faster closed the door
i thought everythings over and can get down to work
suddenly i saw another one of similar size on the corner of the floor!!
ahhh damn it i ran out nearly cried
but still bobian i sprayed it and covered it
ok i threw my mushrooms away so wasted
den cooked the vege everything
and ate a few mouths
then a friend suddenly asked if i washed my vege cos maybe got insecticide
i forgot......
i forgot the insecticide can spread in air
walau in the end i threw away the cooked vege
and left only Plain porridge and a freaking egg for dinner
i don't even know if my porridge was contaminted....
what an "exciting" night
im so pissed! but surprised by my braveness to fight cockroaches
i got a conclusion
Man can do unexpected things under "bobian" situations
trust me. you can
i repeated this story to 8 people. hahahaha!!
not interesting anymore
i bet im gonna have nightmares again tonight

anyway. today teacher's day celebration was unexpectedly nice
can see that the councils put in alot of effort
thumbs up for them!(for once i said this)

after a chat today
ya its hard to say the "right things" to someone when you feel exactly the same
i can only say
maybe some people care but they don't show?
maybe you are their close friends too?
just that we think too much?
i don't know. so many unknowns. so many maybes
they are just comforting words
if only we can "see" what other people thinks
then you won't "invest" wrongly