watched Enchanted today
it was all right. i like it being airy-fairy
their very nice songs
but maybe its TOO airy-fairy
ok it was supposed to be a fairy tale
oh ya. first time been to AMK Hub
dont say i mountain tortoise. didn't have time to la haha

now after As. no need to stress over mugging
then i start to stress over what i've been doing over the past 2years
did i spend my time fruitfully?
ok of cause. mug everyday SURE is fruitful ya
did i enjoyed myself?
have i grown?
maybe not height wise la. i know
have i done my part as a friend to my friends?
so many things to think about
thats why cannot sleep haha
ok. i think i have grown
at least i can control my 情绪 better now
have lesser moodswings
last time in sec school if im upset or what
i will emo and try to walk alone in front when others are behind
haha. stupid me
but now i wont. no more
i would try to crap back with you

talking to cheng about friendship and stuff now
this always cause troubles to people
2years is not a very long period
minus off the time u try to escape from sec school 的阴隐
so left about 1.5years
its not easy to find close friends within 1.5years
not to mention someone who can understand you from inside out
actually no one really understands you inside out what
i wouldn't say i found super super close friends la
maybe im too sensitive which restricts me to...(i dont know how to explain)
that's what mzqr said
but im glad to find some trustworthy friends
friends whom i can talk to without "restricitions"
and friends whom i can just crap nonsense non stop and have fun with
and i think it's good enough
we can't expect too much ya
跟何况 the friends you know here have their super close sec school friends
whom already share close relationships together
so i think it's not easy to NOT "取代" BUT secure a place in their heart
but i think as we grow older
we tend to let nature takes its course
from "hey you can ONLY have me as your bestfriend" in primary school
to now "aiya whatever la. 不要想太多"
is it? do i make sense?
haha ok. maybe only to myself
they are just my thoughts. how i feel
ok. enough of this

hey thanks ahDy! for giving my tagboard a new life haha

walau i blogged super long
a short post like this took me 3hrs!!
not because i type very slowly
but i just cant sit still and JUST blog
i must blog 1 sentence and chat 3mins
haha. weirdo