got back 3 tests. passed one by a mark. failed the other 2
i finally know how far behind i am from the rest
and it must be during this time that many things must happen
my insomnia is back. i can feel my head bursting anytime
im totally demoralised. this is not what i thought uni would be like in the first place
i dont blame life sucks now for at least i get a chance to reach this stage
and hopefully i dont blame myself for making this decision
i only have myself to blame for not working doubly hard than others when i know i need to
"never take econs in jc before"
perhaps thats the excuse i've been giving myself all this while
the real thing is coming. im at a lost. no motivation

and when will it be the last time im doing all this shit??
can i just put an end to this! walau eh. pissed with myself man