watched the SPD Charity show on tv just now. felt really emotional
everytime after watching this kind of program. i feel kinda sad.
partly over them. you see there are actually so many unfortunate people around us
and partly sad for myself. i feel kinda useless when i see them fighting so hard
against fate and sufferings. but here i am so lucky and fortunate to have
many things that they dont have. healthy enough to do many things they want
but cannot do. yet i am always not contented. complain and complain
can study yet never cherish the chance. say wanna work hard work hard
but always give myself excuses sems after sems
and many others which i cannot think of at the moment
there was a story of a 18years old girl who had an accident when she was 15
which caused her to become handicapped. she said
" 妈妈照顾我很辛苦，还要做家务。我很想帮她做家务，可是我不能。
等我四十多岁，妈妈已经不在了，我要怎么办，每有人照顾我。
妈妈能够陪我到几时"
this is so real. from a 18years old girl
she wants to help her mum do housework so badly
i find excuses not to do them. even go out rhrow rubbish at the rubbish chute i also lazy
at that instance i immediately helped to iron clothes
but i know this "guilt" wouldnt last long
walau seriously feel like slapping myself
i think right other that maybe donating money or physically helping them
what i can do is to live my life to the fullest
i mean try to be contented with what i have. complain less and cherish more
alright that shall be my goal in life. hopefully i can achieve it and be happier=)

ok im very excited now cause i got TWO dramas to watch
my long awaited 宫心计 and the old show 岁月风云
i watched 5 episodes of 宫心计 already
eh its all about things in the 宫廷 so the conversations are kinda chim
even though i look at the subtitle i also dont understand some parts haha
but its really not bad. look at how those 老戏骨勾心斗角
no wonder Iweekly said 好看不好看都要看
and i dont know how 岁月风云 appears in my house lo
woke up this morning then saw it on the table. so high la
because got the man that i like inside hee
苗侨伟 btw he's 54 i think
paiseh i dont know why the male actors that i like all have certain age already=x




so man so cool!!

ok i should stop this if not it will go forever