many things happened within the last 2 weeks
mostly sad events sad news.. but well....
so much so that i dont wanna face it
i still gotta accept it..
you just gotta Keep Forgetting

i never update that one of a friend among my "click" of coursemates just quitted school
like 2 weeks ago
because she was too stressed. cant sleep
to the point that she needa went on medication
(now im thinking if i should have taken medication back in jc)
although she just joined our click a year ago only
its rather sad that someone is leaving us
just when we started to know each other better
i have one less audience to tell my jokes to
(because she said i was supposed to tell her a joke everyday)
apart from the fact that some of us got affected emotionally
i guess this departure has more or less affected us mentally
the Strength to overcome the stress we are facing
because somebody has already taken "this first step"
and those who have this thought in mind but just lack the courage to do so
might be contemplating now
2 of us are already thinking of quitting school or changing course as a last resort
depending on their results this sem

actually im not in favour of this mentality
well its not that i am doing fine now. im not..
but because i know i did not even put in the effort to work hard
i did not even tried my best to achieve my best results
how can i even think of quitting school?
to me unless you really study damn hard and yet still cant do well
then ok maybe this course really isnt the one for you
i dont know if i can just 一竹竿打翻整艘船
but looking at the way the few of us are doing now
(im talking about the girls. i dunno why uni guys are so damn hardworking!)
i know we did not even work as hard
compared to many many others (local or international students)
some of us dont even listen during lectures
i have to admit i only listen attentively for ONE lecture this sem
out of the few that i went
and for the millionth time i say i never do a single tutorial
believe it or not
im not trying to "show off" myself for being so slack
its not something to proud of anyway
just trying to bring out the point that we shouldnt give up so easily
not until we really tried our best
maybe many of us might think "i wasnt like this last time"
"i used to be very hardworking and motivated"
yea me too. i used to too
but those were the times when we had teachers to give us a push
now we dont
and so the true test of our self-discipline
which i have to say i failed the test
my discipline only comes in when im desperately in need of time
like one month to exams and i still dont know my stuff at all!
this is happening again this sem =X
but anyway.. as im here trying to encourage whoever is thinking of giving up now
and yet slacking my time away
please do not give up so easily
think of the reasons you gave yourself when choosing this course
be it its the course of your dream. its out of impulse or you didnt have a choice
be responsible for your choice and yourself
but still... the choice is yours
if really really cannot take it then just be it
有时勉强真的不会有幸福
hope i wont be the first few to give up
ok irony!!!!
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LOL


and my DEAREST TAY PING HUI IS NOT SINGLE AND AVAILABLE ANYMORE!
HE IS GONNA GET MARRIED SOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!
i didnt even know he has a gf of many years la
what thee......... fish..
now i know why some idols cant declare themselves attached or married
it really breaks the heart of many fansssss
like me.... =(


but this is nothing compared to someone else being unavailable....


Keep Forgetting by JoJo